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August 07 2026 11 AM Keeping it going
I think about how really it is not the motivation that keeps us going, but the consistency we put into our actions everyday.
There's a call to action for me right now to do great things. But in doing so requires me to put down the things I've done before and shake up the stability I've enjoyed so far. For someone that's comfortable, this means that there's a good chance I'll get busy, and getting my gears to grind again. I know that this is a good thing. Its just that being lucid and aware like this is something I wanted to share about before embarking.
It meant for me, as something as a metaphor. Like the knights of the round table myth. Searching for the holy grail, the grail knights ventured deep into the forest. The forest of unknown - where anxiety and dread of the what was not visible, the unfamiliar and the unexplored. Just like in the story, they had to go there regardless in search for the grail.
Alas, this for me is something like those along the lines. I want to at least be able to develop the kind of inner strength for me to get through this. Modern internet and my current habits contradict this by focusing on the wrong things.
Ultimately, the awareness is the first step. I am an adult now. Always had the agency to do things I wanted to, and to become more responsible to my actions and what is expected of me. This is not a blog but more of a journal thinking about it. It kind of blurs a bit. upon thinking about it, blogging is about sharing what you think to the world/readers right? Is this something that I should be blogging about? Maybe I have adhd, or in equivalent note - should this count as oversharing just like when we are in groups?
Ramblings without edits and proofreads like this is how I do it best anyway. Maybe this will bit me in the ass sooner or later. But right now, I'll have to work to pay some bills first.